I can feel myself giving up. Letting my imagination take over. I already know what's going to happen. Just trying to keep my head on straight.
Edit: Feb 3, 2012
Fuck, I'm psychic. This was one day prior to the day Leah broke up with me.
Saturday, January 22, 2011
Thursday, January 6, 2011
I wonder
where I went. I wonder how all these things inside my head turned into demons I can't seem to get rid of.
I wasn't afraid before now because I didn't think about it. Now I'm afraid I'm not enough. I'm not skinny enough. Athletic enough. I don't dress the way you like. I'm not pretty enough. I'm not interesting enough. What if? I wish I could make you love me the way I love you, I wish I could make you want me the way I want you. Because the truth is, when I say I love you more, I know it's true, I'm not just trying to one up you. Now it feels like I can't feel you.
I wasn't afraid before now because I didn't think about it. Now I'm afraid I'm not enough. I'm not skinny enough. Athletic enough. I don't dress the way you like. I'm not pretty enough. I'm not interesting enough. What if? I wish I could make you love me the way I love you, I wish I could make you want me the way I want you. Because the truth is, when I say I love you more, I know it's true, I'm not just trying to one up you. Now it feels like I can't feel you.
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Saturday, January 1, 2011
1/1/11
So many memories. All left in last year. Let's make this year amazing. I have so many things left to learn.
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Save Him
I'm listening to Justin Nozuka. Have been for the last hour - the same song on repeat. So good.
Tumblin'
Waiting for Leah to wake up.
Good god I can't wait until Friday to see her, I feel like I'm going to go crazy.
Tumblin'
Waiting for Leah to wake up.
Good god I can't wait until Friday to see her, I feel like I'm going to go crazy.
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Monday, October 11, 2010
Castine
I would have stayed if I could.
My god, I really am not the same anymore. But it's a good thing.
My god, I really am not the same anymore. But it's a good thing.
Sunday, September 26, 2010
Hmmm.
So I totally forgot about my journal and I haven't written in it in a longggg time so I'm probably going to do that tonight. I'm listening to my i-pod right now which I haven't done in about 2 weeks - WEIRD! I'm sad tonight. But I know why. It's alright. I'll get over it.
I'm a little afraid because I'm sensing some terrible Deja Vu going on here. Please, please don't let it be.
Lately my mind has been consumed with thoughts of a beautiful girl who lives much too far away. But I'm really excited because she's driving 2 and a half hours just to come visit me on saturday. I don't know how this even happened - this thing between us. It seems almost instantaneous when I think about it now. There's so much to think about.
And I don't feel good.
I'm a little afraid because I'm sensing some terrible Deja Vu going on here. Please, please don't let it be.
Lately my mind has been consumed with thoughts of a beautiful girl who lives much too far away. But I'm really excited because she's driving 2 and a half hours just to come visit me on saturday. I don't know how this even happened - this thing between us. It seems almost instantaneous when I think about it now. There's so much to think about.
And I don't feel good.
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